Missing My Buddha

I'm not doing so well today. I'm missing my baby boy so much! It hurts something awful! I only cried three times today. First two were hard cries.

Briggie and I did some work around the room. I removed one of the three litter boxes and hay boxes - this one was on the floor. We had four water bowls in the room and I removed two. I gave her a pink stuffed rabbit, one that she got for Easter, to keep her company. She has groomed it.

She is doing well with Buddha gone - at least from what we can tell. She's eating like her normal self! No slowing down for her there! She still doesn't like to be petted. So I guess it's looking like she might not go into depression. Which is good. I was talking to Debby, who runs the Northeastern satellite of the Colorado House-Rabbit society, said that if Briggie was depressed after losing Buu, we might need to find her another mate. I hope that Briggie will not get depressed.

It's not that I don't love her and care for her because I do. But I know I won't be able to handle getting another bunny. Then when I lose either Briggie or the other bunny, I'll have to look for another mate for that one. It will be a never ending cycle, which I know I cannot handle.

I will do whatever Briggie wants though. Brent thinks she will do fine by herself. She just has that air of independence about her. Which I'm sure is true.

So anyways, that is our story for right now. Why does losing a loved one, even a pet hurt so much? Why is there death? I just wish it didn't hurt so much.

I love you Buu!!!!